Ughhhhh hate hw

……I love work

So lately I have been thinking about my future a lot. Specifically my future with my boyfriend. People in the dumb southern style society I was brought up in believe that everyone must get married super young. Don’t get me wrong I want to get married young and settle down and start my life. But how can you truly know when you are ready. Matt and I ever since we spent the week with his family have been talking about the future and what we want and I cant stop thinking about. Talk about non stop. I love him and do want to end up with him but eeeeep haha. We were going to move in together in January and I am kinda bummed we aren’t. I just can never really voice how I feel, I can type it but I can never just say it. I always want to talk and say how I feel I just cant. While we were up in Georgia needless to say we drank a lot, in my defense I was on vacation I never really celebrated my birthday that hard, we talked about our future about kids houses marriage all that jazz. But how the hell do I know, I don’t really know where this rant came from but yeah I guess thats it.

Happy girl today laying in bed all day with Matt thank god I needed this. I haven’t been so relaxed in days